The other day I decided that it was well past the time for me to wash the outside of my windows and glass panels on my balcony. As soon as I washed them there was a noticeable difference. I could clearly see through the glass now without the familiar filter of a years worth of green gunk and grime, oh and spider deification (yes spiders poop). I was feeling pretty good about the progress I was making. As I continued down the length of glass panels I looked back at the ones that were drying and noticed that there were spots and smudges that I had inadvertently missed during my first go. So I went back to the first and started again. At almost the same spot down the line of glass panels I noticed that once again I could see spots and smudges on some of the panels that I had just done for the second time. So I decided that this time I would get a heavy-duty cleaning cloth, you know, the ones with the mesh on one side and really give the glass a good scrubbing and a good rinse with the garden hose set on jet (there is no better setting than jet on a nozzle). As I sat inside my house after doing them all that third time I noticed that there were still spots and smudges that I could see on the glass panels. At this point I decided to try to ignore the imperfections of my well intended cleaning endeavour (’cause I was exhausted) and made a note to self to hire someone to do this job the next time around.
Tell me, is there ever a time when one can truly remove each spot and smudge and have glass so pure that it shines without one blemish? I have in the past had professionals clean my windows for me and even they leave streaks and miss places. I look out at the job that I did on my glass panels and outside windows and think that it isn’t good enough. Wow, where did that thought come from? Didn’t I just work myself to the bone (slight exaggeration) trying to remove all the spots and smudges? Why am I so focused on a few spots left over? Why can’t I be satisfied with the job that I did and think job well done instead of “not good enough”? Never mind that I have managed to remove a years worth of green gunk and grime, never mind that I have a clearer view…all I can focus on is the few spots and smudges. Yet still I look out at these panels of glass and think, it’s not good enough. I can’t seem to focus on the whole and look beyond the spots and smudges to the beauty of the golf course. My focus remains short of its goal. Instead it remains stuck on the foreground viewing the spots and smudges.
I can’t help but wonder how often I do this in other parts of my life, focus on the foreground and miss the beauty beyond the spots and smudges. Do I remain stuck in the foreground and miss opportunities that God would want to bless me with? Do I have a shorten sight line because I am so focused on the foreground and believing that “it” what ever “it” is, isn’t good enough? Does this inability or difficulty to look beyond the imperfection of things hinder me in viewing myself as God views me? Do I somehow equate this belief of “it” as being not good enough to mean that I am not good enough? How many times have I, have we accepted less than what was intended for us? God doesn’t want our focus to be on the spots and smudges but on the goal which is to run the race of life to win. To be all that He created us to be and to stop focusing on our spots and smudges. He doesn’t see these imperfections so why should we?
Here’s to running the Race to win and not trying to prove our worth by how perfect we do our jobs or live our lives.